"I can't tell you know, there are ladies present...kimmie's here, so I will tell you later"
--said by a girl
"No! Don't curse, not in front of kimmie."
When exactly does the line between being a gentleman and treating someone like she is 5, blur?
For the last several days I have been nothing but "woe is me" and whatnot, and very much finding a sort of dark satisfaction in being down. But last night I had a sort of reality check. Nothing in life is really garunteed. And my life is a holiday resort compared to some. I have so much to be thankful for. I made a list last night of all the things I am lucky/happy/thankful/blessed to have....and while I am not going to share it's details, it did help me find a better perspective on things. There is nothing I cannot deal with right now....and that in and of its self is something to be happy about. We talked in core class about prolonging the time when we allow ourselves to be happy. Once I get into college, I will be happy. Once I graduate, then, I will be content. Once I find someone to love me, then my real life can begin... and so forth and so on. We tend to think in the future, and not enjoy the time we are living now. I know i fall prey to this all the time....a chronic illness you could say. I really ought to just put a post-it on my computer (where I sadly spend 90% of my time) that says Carpe Diem.